Postive Attitude and the Power of Now

One step at a time.  One thing that has really helped me to keep a positive (and non-fearful, so far) attitude is to try to be living in the now.  Of course I am also reading Eckhart Tolle's book "The Power of Now"  The thing is:  I feel fine now.  Even after finding the lump and anticipating a diagnosis I felt fine.  After the diagnosis I felt fine.  I am the same pain free healthy person that I was a month ago.  Spring is here. Life is good. I have a creative and fulfilling relationship with my beautiful wife.

 There are many possible future outcomes (always) and a whole complicated network of factors brought me to this point.  My mind can be very active, and I rapidly realised that I cannot help myself by exploring all the possible future outcomes in my mind (it would take a lifetime just to do that!) - and who knows what life will bring?  Similarly there is nothing to be gained for me to question how I arrived at this point.  Why me?  Well, why not me?

We had a lovely example of "now" when I arrived at Charing Cross on Tuesday May 6th for treatment.  I was all packed and expecting to be in for a few days.  It turned out that  had to take some pre-chemo drugs (a steroid - Dexamethasone) before treatment started, so I was able to leave the Hospital and have a delicious late lunch with Nicki and then a lovely walk on Hampstead Heath.

So, all I am saying is there is no point in worrying about the future.  The Now is what I have got.  One Step at a Time.